Wednesday, April 25, 2007
haiz
why must it be her??
why couldnt it be me??
im the one who have much more sins
she is innocent
im the one who should pay....
is god being that bad??
ok it goes like this.....
i had this ex some time ago... we stead but we never met before..
and we only contacted through msn and our cell phones..
it went on for two months plus
then i got frustrated
i guess it is right to say you will feel insecure that you never met ur loved one before
its impossible to love someone you didnt noe
wait its didnt meet before...
it happened that her cousin tested me...
and yeah i sort of fall into the trap...
she found out and ask me to tell me the truth...
i told her the entire truth
i said i cant be living a lie no more...
you cant keep on making me not see you...
its as if asking the tongue to back off the teeth but stay as cloze as possible without touching
that was it...
it was official...
she was heartbroken but she admired me as i told her the entire truth...
after that entire incident we didnt contact much...
yesterday i received news bout her from her cuzzin
it seems her health is detoriating
and its because i left her
her cuz told me she wrote a lot of things about me...
good things that praised me....
whats more worse is i received news that her illness is stomach cancer and that its untreatable....
she got 5 months to live or the longest is 6 years
i met her just now
and its truely good to see her smiling and being happy
but knowing the fact i made her condition worse was telling me that its unfair...
why is it her??
tell me why is it like this??
why is it so unfair???
how am i to break the news to her??
her family aint telling
and im the one who should telll... haiz
please help me in everyway give me advice give me strength give me everything you could!!!
Monday, April 9, 2007
good day fer me today
today is the weirdest day ever
i never felt any stress
everything went out right and smoothly
woohoo i wish everyday would be like this where all the teachers and my classmates look up to me
finally a sense of respect as a class chairman
that was school.....
after school
hmm there isnt much to be said ar but i made heads turn
and fidaiy i hope you are happy to see me with another gurl
YES I AM NOT GONNA BOTHER YOU IF YOU IGNORE ME
ahak
that felt good...
take care you all...
tag me when you can afford to...
Lurve you guys and galz out there
MUACKS!!
MUSIC TO THE
HEART
HEART
under construction!
will update when i have time!
SCREAM!!
THAT profile
im approximately 167m
my weight is 55kg
Im 18 going 19
AND i do not have any history of medical complications
the bad side of me is
hot tempered..
sarcastic as always
im crazy
i do hold little grudges
i hate the conception of me being lonely and all
BUT I DO HAVE A GOOD SIDE
INDIE ROCK AND ROLL!
im someone who's willing to cry with you when you're down
i can give good advice
im always there for anyone
goodbye
syAfIqAh!
nUrUl fArAh AthIrAh lEE!
hUssAInI
AnA
IdA dElUnA
nOrA
AzyfAh
Indah
dEbbIE
Nur Fareena!
mAstUrA
nUrIll hAnnAh
jyOthI
zIEqAh
kAt
dIAn fArhAnAh
lIl mIss nAnA
Its "nAd" bItch
rAhmAn ROCKER!
haba
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