Glamorous Indie Rock & Roll Is What I need

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

and here's what sux

im in a pissed off mood.........................................

can i die?

Monday, January 26, 2009

and what muterabbi say is true

yah my life revolves around friends and relationship... but no its not all bout that... for i do have a life...

my bookworm life.. where i read books in one day and absorb as much information on my own...

maybe yeah i should get back to my old life...

where i remember all the harsh life of being all alone....

being an outcast... doing everything all alone.... where nobody was a friend and nobody was there for me...

do you want me to go back there? back to where i had my own life.... with no one to stop me with what the fuck im doing...

where cuts and death was all that associate me to life? where there is no meaningful life ... but there is death that awaits you? cause no one will escape death...

well i dunt care if i abandon my friends and relationships... for you know best that i have done that before... i really can dunt give a fuck with friends and relationships... like totally easy shit for me to just forget the world and get back to my old lame routine life of waiting for death....

its not about enjoying while you are young...its about being realistic... for life is not as easy as it seems...

if you want it..
then fine......

you asked for it....

i shall grant it...

cause im pretty pissed off with everything...

life?! love?!

kaes gonna fuck care bout it... dah malas.... back to being the one without emotions...

Sunday, January 25, 2009

and love hits hard on him

its been 4 freaking months... being together... and me as a witness of their relationship....

he sacrificed a lot for you.. why would you just let him go just like that? changing urself start with urself... not by running away from it.... he did everything for you.. made you endure such a long time...

but why must you put it all away and run away from it and turning back to where you started?

haiz.... though i may just be a bystander to your relationship.... but still i saw how much he sacrificed for you....

he cried when you wanted to break with him.... he was so afraid of losing you...

he even tried to find you.....

is it me or are more and more relationships failing to see a happy ending?!

why is it so? where is the love people?

really2 i don't see a point of loving someone and they sacrifice so much for you and yet you choose to give up for all the freaking things they did for you...!

same goes for me and my previous ex's.... i sacrificed so much.. and yet they broke up with me....

so tell me whats the point?!

im treating relationship real slow right now... i shall not rush anything... and will just go with the flow...

she understands that... and i hope we'll be together as long as possible...

cause i love her.... but i am prepared for the worse...

no point in staying in one spot... after all im still young... im prepared for anything that is to happen...

without me quitting poly ... i wouldnt have realised how cruel and harsh this world is...

and im definitely more prepared for whats to come.. without regretting any mistakes that are to come but to make sure i do no repeat it... simple enough...

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

sometimes life hits you hard

kaes thanks for the many moral support people!

cant believe there's quite a number of people who tagged me and are caring bout me...

its just unbelievable.. cause.. firstly.. like i said previously.. nobody calls or texts... so why the sudden thoughtfulness?

hmm live seems to be a bore... nothing much to do.. have been procrastinating bout cleaning my room.. cant believe im so comfortable with a messy room... LOLX

hmm life? life isnt bout trying to be all about love ... yeah its true...

but i think life is how you survive it... everyone has a different tale to tell...

and some may be dull but some are very interesting...

all i know my route is going to be predetermined...

IM GOING TO SIGN ON AS A POLICE OFFICER!

lolx so much of being so close to ncc... yet going to police... oh well that life right?

you choose which direction you want to go...

so thats it! nothing much of a story today...

Thursday, January 8, 2009

life?

so tell me whats the meaning of life?

really2 why is it people seem to say enjoy life?

cause i dunt see a point of enjoying life thats all alone..

yeah alone.. very alone..... not being a fag here but yeah im all alone... like i said..

no one texts me... no one calls me... no one asks me out...

but i seem to not to be enjoying being alone..

all i wanted was to feel how it is to feel loved...

dunt talk bout my parents cause i dunt feel loved by them.. like seriously...

so love from friends? no i dunt really have friends....

love is just really complicated!

love?

whats love?

i really forget the meaning of love.. how it felt like and why am i like in love at the first place...

i just feel so comfortable with you.. you can withstand my lameness..

i just feel so lost without you.. you guide me through life....

you make my troubles go away... you just seem to bring me to a different world

so is this love? or is this infactuation?

you make me feel complete so why arent we together?

is it because of my attitude? my way of dressing? my looks?

im never gonna feel love.. cause i keep giving love... but no one really makes me feel wanted...

what am i?

i never get msgs.. i never get calls.... i never have friends who ask me out...

is it because of my attitude? cause if it is.. i have no idea what is it that makes me as a bad friend...

then again am i the one who doesnt seem to bother bout my friends?
i dunno whether i do that... but i try my best to be there for them...

dunt i msg people? yeah i do but i never always get a reply.. not because they're busy but most of the time.. my msgs seem to be on the lowest priority..

maybe im meant not to have friends...

from young till old.. i never had true friends.. so yeah life sux..

ELLY AND FRIENDS IF YOU MUST KNOW THE REASON....

THATS THE REASON...

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

NEW GIRLFRIEND!

so yeah i got a new girlfriend! AND ITS DORAEMON!

yalah had to take a car and was all alone in the corner had no other companion than this doraemon so played it like as if i am back in my childhood...

what to do i lack a childhood...

kaes that was yesterday... then after everything late afternoon or early evening went to meet elly...

she was with her friends.. but sadly her friends are a bit hostile.. only her girlfriends who were nice enough to talk to me and my friend but the guys practically didnt bother

anyways thats all i can say! below is doraemon! my gf! lolx!

DORAEMON!

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

i stand corrected...

LOVING SOMEONE SUCKS!!!!

unconditional love.. hahahahah prove me wrong.. prove that im fucking wrong to find love a door to hell....

whats the point of loving ? tell me!! tell me whats the right thing?

i never meant any harm... did i make you look cheap did i?

was it because it was all too fast?

but if it was too fast did i try to like make use of you?

i put a 100% for you... and what happen? i was thrown away.. just like some piece of fucking trash...

you never knew how it felt like...

how fucking pissed i was...

just cutting myself wasnt enough.. but its fine with me.. it shows im still human... i can die....

but it doesnt hurt.. really i doesnt hurt... it felt like the blade was kissing me... just left a peck and blood came out...

for in my heart i was so wrecked... it was being stabbed by a million blades... thrown from a plane without a parachute... hit by a speeding car...

being in the institute of mental health in a straight jacket...

talking to myself... trying to fucking get a life...

you never knew....

and all the text i gave was meaningless... cause there wasnt any replies... i was like texting the wall hoping for a reply...

WHAT DID I DO WRONG TILL I DESERVE ALL THIS???

what the fuck am i?

why the fuck am i loving you?

why the fuck im still your friend but yet you treat me like dirt?

so everyone is dealt with luck...

kaes updating again.....

come to say.. yeah its true never to fall in love... cause love sucks! ouh well what to do right?

im just a stupid person... stupid to fall in love... stupid luhs in everyway....

hmm if ever life hits me hard.. its always the matter of the heart..

i just give up like that... with life with love... with everything... cause nothing seem so important....

cause nothing can change the fact that ive been hurt...

nothing can soothe the pain....

no one understands...

no one cares....

for all i know death is coming for me ....

whether slowly or fast.... it will come for me...

but my heart seems not to bother bout death.. cause i accept it with open hearts...

not worrying whether anyone will miss me.. cause no one will..

it will be the same as my past.. where friends were nothing but cigarettes

love was nothing except for art...

where everything is expressed in its true form.... meant to capture the artist's feelings at the moment....

for i have no heart left for emotions... cause emotions sucks

hmm

so elly tagged me and calling me sensitive and stuff! hahahahaha

well this song is just for memories mah... so its on autoplay... i played this song before with my band i enjoy corumn 80's!

I DIDNT PUT ONLY ONE SONG SEH! I PUT A WHOLE PLAYLIST OF CORUMN 80's!

hahahahaha

kaes randomness....

MY SIS MET AKEY!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA

finally meet seh....

nth else to put... cause im out of topics to talk about! will update periodically hahahaha

OUH REENA!!!! WHY YOU LIE TO ME!!! OUH REENA!!!

hahahahaha

Sunday, January 4, 2009

and random post...

ELLY KEEP ON LETTING ME HEAR THIS SONG I SO DUNT WISH TO HEAR!...

corumn80s

if only this song never existed.. sheesh! reminds me of reena!

Friday, January 2, 2009

and hello 2009!!!!

HAHAHA HEY 2009 is full of surprise and wonder and fun! im so loving 2009 rather than 2008!

kaes so on the eve of the year i was like working! worked from 6pm to 2am!

had the first class view of the fire works again like last year.. weeeeeeeeeeeee! =D

then i got two new collegues zul and yas.. hope i spelled their names correctly!

OUHS! NOT FORGETTING JASLEY!

so after the busyness of work decided to lepak but didnt noe where to go...

then yas decided we lepak with him and his gf and his gf friends...

and we went to chijmes! CLUBBING FOR THE UNDERAGE!!! LOLX!

I BOUGHT A CALRSBERG WITHOUT ANY ID!!! hahahhaa underage haram dude!

hmm and i met the girls! wooo! they're hot!

no comments ehk.. OUHS! I GOT BITTEN BY TWO GIRLS!!! PICS ARE BELOW!

PAIN SIA!!!

how can two gorgeous girls bite so hard! eiiii!!!!!!! still feeling the pain!

so hello 2009 and bye2 2008!

HOPE THE REST OF YOU GUYS HAD A GREAT TIME! CAUSE I KNOW I DID...!

JUJU'S BITE MARKS!

ELLY'S BITE MARKS!

JUJU'S BITE MARK AGAIN BUT THIS TIME ITS ON MY HAND

MUSIC TO THE

HEART

under construction!
will update when i have time!

SCREAM!!

THAT profile

im approximately 167m
my weight is 55kg
Im 18 going 19
AND i do not have any history of medical complications

the bad side of me is
hot tempered..
sarcastic as always
im crazy
i do hold little grudges
i hate the conception of me being lonely and all

BUT I DO HAVE A GOOD SIDE
INDIE ROCK AND ROLL!
im someone who's willing to cry with you when you're down
i can give good advice
im always there for anyone