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Sunday, March 22, 2009
so shit happens...

im in no position to say im right...

for i have wronged one person.....


but would he listen to me? for everyone thinks i just give crappy reasons...

sudah uhs... kalau kau tak percaye aku sakit on that day i so called bubbled kau... then i dunno what else you wanna believe...
Monday, March 16, 2009
things are better left explained

i guess its best for me to explain things right here right now....

look.... cuts arent that bad when its for a purpose... and i think its best i explain it to everyone right here right now...

i believe you all need an explanation and i owe it to you ppl

The Purpose is simple.. when i cut.. i cut the relation between whoever i wish i never knew... whether its friends relation love relation... money relation...

relativity of whoever or whatever i wish to forget...(chim huh?)

simple reason why the latest cut.. i had to get away from love....

should term it correctly.... INFATUATION!

sadly when i cut.. it seems i go to a different world.. a world where i begin to realise...

and this world.. i see that no one can hurt you.. unless you hurt urself...

dunt tell me shit that someone hurt you...

cause its you who wanted to be hurt... think for your own self ..
dunt go on blaming ppl and giving reasons why that person is at fault...

if talking bout relationship...

if the guy dump a girl... the girl blames the guy...

if the girl dumps the guy.. the guy blames the girl...

its like bullshit... why not just sit down.. think properly... and then take the necessary steps... be friends.. get to know each other very thoroughly before entering a relationship.. if you're commitment phobic then dunt try getting to stupid crap up teenage love...

and those who get into relationships just for sex.. you ppl are the worst ppl ever... you wanna get laid? geylang is for you...

and when you're married.. you can do whatever you want.. but not by hurting any parties...

simple logic and maturity isnt all bout age...

and maturity doesnt have to be shown most of the time...

everyone is mature... but the child side is ever growing together with you...

for cuts are a simple way for me to tell you that im hurting myself.. back off... cause you cant hurt me unless i let you....

and when i cut... i get into a euphoria...(shiok? steam?)
adrenaline rush into my blood...

its like when ppl drink.. or really enjoy themselves... but wake up with a hangover..

same goes for me.. after i cut.. i start to regret doing it.. but its for me to be strong...

so thats all i could think of... and i hope i explained it well to those following my blog...

anyways.... for reena... sadly.. cutting couldnt help me...

but well... life has to go on right?
Thursday, March 12, 2009
losers stay losers

if my best friend actually said my breath stank..

he would tell me on the spot and not on the tag board...

ouhs and i did check the ip addresses.. it wasnt him....

so you bloody anonymous.. get a life alright?
hmm so its rebuttal time!

for those who i know who actually tagged stuff at my tag board...

thank you..

but for those anonymous ppl.. could you get a life and tag other ppl?

stop criticizing me for what i do.. if i ask to die.. i would do it.. i bloody hell can do it if i want to...

simply those anonymous ppl.. stop being cowards... call me coward? when you bloody hell ass ppl dunt put ur name and start criticizing me...

NO GUTS!!

to concern.. everybody dies one day.. resign myself to fate? its already fated that everyone will die.. no one lives forever..
sheesh...

to passerby... cuts are nothing to her.. she's not even happy.. she knows how much i love her.. but she's the one stupid enough to commit such a fatal mistake...


to nn.. nobody can be mature all the time.. face it.. if everyone is mature enough there wouldnt be gangsters nor teen pregnancy and stuff like that...

and yes being 18 doesnt mean im mature.. for goodness sake.. age isnt a sign of maturity..
Sunday, March 8, 2009
so if you peeps close to me wanna

cut!

then i'll join in the fun..

THANKS UHS KAK ANA!!!!

you also cut...

HUSSAINI ALSO CUT!!!

now its my turn!

done on friday! 6th march at 4 am!


TOTAL OF 13 lines from a blade!

thanks for viewing!
Friday, March 6, 2009
so i expected it...

so yeah it was a silent departure...

im feel like thrash thank you so much...


life? SUX!
so its life

so yesterday an old drunk man actually walked up to me and asked for some money so that he could take a cab...

i gave him the money sincerely... well.. its okays... not everyday i could help a man.. i understood how he felt... how he needed to go home... if only more singaporeans are kinder...
i still remember once i was lost in grange road.. with no wallet cause i just lost it... i couldnt take a bus even.. so i actually had to like try to take a cab to orchard.. so i did... i hailed a couple of cabs.. and none of them was willing to help me... how fucked up was that? i was asking for directions.. not asking for a free ride... one cab driver gave me the worst impression ever... he said... "i didnt stop to have a chat" and drove away... i was like wtf!


ouhs well that was last time... so now to the current situation...

IM GONNA RUN AWAY FROM ALL TIES EXCEPT FAMILY TIES!

so friends.. i'm so sorry... if you never made a good impression.. im gonna walk away from your life... for those who think they gave me a bad impression... there's only one way to clarify that.. and that is.. if i dunt even chat/talk/sms you....

and for those who doesnt have any shame but asks me whether i will be staying in contact with... well i think you have the answer already....

you can try to ask.. but it varies... and most i'll be courteous and say yeah you're still my friend... and if that's the last you heard from me... then too bad...

so im living my life alone(but with family...)

MOST FRIENDS SUCK! THE REST ARE JUST BIMBO'S!
AND SOME ARE MEANT TO BE TREASURED!

so yeah... those who i treasure.. i thank thee for being there for me..

for those who arent... FUCK OFF! thank you!
Sunday, March 1, 2009
its easier to forget than to remember...

and at times its just so easy to forget... but its difficult to remember...

but now its just difficult to forget but easy to remember....


life hits me hard when reena left me... no point in going to in depth into that story again...

but somehow.. i remember every little detail of how much i loved her....

never had i remember so clearly of someone....

but the funny thing is.... i never wanted to let her go... but i guess im not good enough for her...

i was forced to let go forced to move on.... but at what stake? i moved with a very heavy heart...

nothing in the world cheered me up... i moved on reluctantly...

and now im always busy working... why? cause im living on my own...

i dunt have my parents support whatsoever in terms of financially...

its really difficult... but by the 10 of march 2009 i should be stable enough...

to those i relied on.. i'll repay you one day....

okays back to the story.. yeah i moved on reluctantly.... life was moving so slowly...

things were just plain blank boring and lonely....

if ever i were to talk about friends... i just cant rely on them...

when i was with you.. plainly.. you were my world... i had never been so serious with a girl...

like i thought you were the one.. the one i could love forever.. and truely forever..

when you broke up with me.. i totally didnt know where to go.. whats the point of being in love with someone else when my heart is with you...

i practically malfunction on that day itself...

even now.. i just cant love another like i loved you... i dunt even know if you read my blog..

maybe you do... maybe you dunt... who knows...

will ever this post be read by you? if it is read.. im glad you try to update urself about me.. if not.. then maybe i was stupid to give my love to you at the first place...

well i cant expect much right... even my sms's you dunt really reply to them... i did text you once in a while.. but the replies were like.. wow you msg me... and then.. you dunt reply my other sms...

i still remember when i accidentally called you.. and you did call back.. i was so happy.. so glad you called back.. i heard ur voice.. and i melted the instant.. and was shocked to know you at the very least called me back...

but well you were on the phone with someone else.... and i couldn't deny that it was another guy...

haiz.. and thats how much i love you reena.... you came and go but my heart went to you... haiz........

ouhs well life has to continue right?

MUSIC TO THE

HEART

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will update when i have time!
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THAT profile

im approximately 167m
my weight is 55kg
Im 18 going 19
AND i do not have any history of medical complications

the bad side of me is
hot tempered..
sarcastic as always
im crazy
i do hold little grudges
i hate the conception of me being lonely and all

BUT I DO HAVE A GOOD SIDE
INDIE ROCK AND ROLL!
im someone who's willing to cry with you when you're down
i can give good advice
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