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Friday, September 25, 2009
so its been a long time i never update

not really in the mood to update.. traffic to my blog seems like 0... so its like no point blogging much..

if life was easier maybe i would update more frequently..
Thursday, September 10, 2009
so it was a birthday huhs..

so it was my birthday uhs.. lolx.. okays yeah it was.. had a great celebration.. well it was with hussy the puss.. yay!

he treat me food at pastamania and also to the arcade playing jubeat...

well that was on 9/9/9.. but well it was a great birthday treat...

and not to mentioned on monday raihana was there for me.. we went to eat again at the same place pastamania lolx..

but its okays ... at the most is i wanted to buy their time.. thats all... and i managed to buy it.. lolx.. okays enjoy the pics uhs.. lazy to type.. comments are welcome








Wednesday, September 9, 2009
so its a fucked up day

today its like the worst day ever felt.. and again i feel damn left out again...

hmm lets see.. another day to my birthday.. and my patience level is tested..

i know today is jap's birthday... so as a friend i would love to celebrate his birthday.. my friends planned to sing a song for him and everything.. and they asked me to bring down my guitar...

so yeah i brought down my guitar and everything.. so they were practicing and in the end they didnt even do it..

so we were lepaking.. as per normal.. played carom.. was fun untill all of them went for a "meeting"

and the meeting left me out.. how nice right? and i was playing carom with 2 of my juniors who i dunt spend much time with...

yelah dengar member kene lepak sorang...

so i was pissed.. i know them like for a long time... though now i start to be close to them...

and suhairy who just get to know them.. was in the meeting itself.. it made me pissed.. damn pissed.. its like as if i was not there...

so i pretend that i wanna go home and brought their belongings there.. but in the end even before i reach them they all said "we're in a meeting"
and that got me pissed enough to really go home...

once i reached home i talked to my older sis.. and she said smth that shocked me.. "who knows they are planning your birthday.. thats why they left you out"

its very logical.. yes.. but.. my birthday has never been planned by my friends.. if really they planned my birthday im very touched...

but again i just got close to them.. and comparing to those who have been long with them.. even fazrul's birthday wasnt even planned.. even jap.. so why the fuck make mine special?

sheesh.. and my birthday aint gonna be special.. for years its nothing to me just another year.. and thats all..

maybe excluding this year where i get to spend time with my older step sister... and she picked out my birthday present though it wasn't planned...

and a few friends who were nice to treat me.. still waiting for the actual day.. which im gonna spend with my best friend...

and i got a bomb from my older sister.. she said.. maybe or high posibilities we are moving to the east side.. bedok..

AND THATS LIKE WHAT THE FUCK....

okays pissed all the way
Saturday, September 5, 2009
hmm just getting this out of my head

hmm anon you really got me there.. nice advice...

lets see.. i just wanna say one thing.. putting a 100% in relationships in the past.. i guess wont go anywhere when one is going through puberty and still exploring the world...

or those who have yet to know what is a relationship...

well i'll just call the relationships based on infatuation and not love...

its really because we aren't ready for commitment... and when we're in a relationship we dunt think of the future...

let me be clear now aite? i want a serious relationship.. where marriage is the ending point.. and not a break up...

i'm already working my ass off to become a police officer.. to get a working man's pay.. not a part time worker alright?


i'm really getting into the serious life.. planning the future...

carving my existence into the world..

maybe to justify what i'm doing is... i'm entering the adult world..

where working is necessary to live... where money is needed.. im not living my ass off with my parents.. leeching them for money...

i want to get a car.. i want to get a bike... i want to get a house....

and i want to have a girlfriend who is ready for marriage once it is the right time...

and before anyone comes tagging saying im asking too much.. then i wanna say this right...

i know it takes love to be in that stage...

so im not asking much but im just saying i have yet to find a girl who is ready to commit to the death being together...


and yes im still young.. but the girls are still too young at heart... maybe when they finish school then they would understand my pain...



and if responsibilities were to step in.. i am 100% ready to take any..

signing on isnt easy... it is commitment...

and if i can be so committed in working.. who says i cant be committed in a relationship..

but can she be committed? hmm...


lets just say.. ardy is waiting for the girls to grow up.. or else he has to find older girls okays?

and its a pain in the ass to be in this stage even though i'm just 18...

so ardy is chilling until a girl around he's age is prepared to commit till marriage.. woohoo..

but still ardy has develop a lazyness to wait.. WAKAKAKKAKAKAKKAKAKAKA
Thursday, September 3, 2009
in the end patience is there

yawns.. okays blog is dusty...

police medical check up on 7 sep looks like my career as a police officer is taking off...

greatness is ... i dunt need to have the same ns like other guys... wahaha..

ouhs pay wise its definitely bigger and worth signing on...

5 years.. hmm not really a biggie for me.. its like im 23 when im out of the police force..

great right? wahahahahaha

okays back to life... i have lost faith in relationships...

girls? wakakaka i dunt even like like anyone anymore..

its like i feel so empty yet im full...

i dunt seem to feel like getting into a relationship or anything..

but damn... its getting lonely for me... but fu*k... i dunt even seem to be motivated to get to know new girls..

so yeah.. empty.. yet full...

but whatever uhs.. i dunt care.. the more i think back.. the more i know why i dunt wanna be in a relationship..

so lazy..

MUSIC TO THE

HEART

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THAT profile

im approximately 167m
my weight is 55kg
Im 18 going 19
AND i do not have any history of medical complications

the bad side of me is
hot tempered..
sarcastic as always
im crazy
i do hold little grudges
i hate the conception of me being lonely and all

BUT I DO HAVE A GOOD SIDE
INDIE ROCK AND ROLL!
im someone who's willing to cry with you when you're down
i can give good advice
im always there for anyone