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Saturday, May 22, 2010
i realise this after really reflecting over it

parenting is not an easy job.. i realise this after pondering so much after thinking of getting ready to be in a serious relationship where it ends till marriage..

marriage itself is not something that requires only love.. but trust, understanding one another, tolerance to each other bad sides.. time spent with each other.. whether one can tolerate a long absence due to work.. whether one can keep the spark alive for years and not get bored with each other...


i never really knew all of this until i really think through about going serious...

im sick of short term relationships where it ends with miscommunication, misunderstanding, heartbreaks or simply due to stupid acts by either me or the other party..


being an adult is hard.. and i never knew it much untill now.. why now? because im at the point of becoming an adult..

little mistakes in life really leaves a mark on my life and of how emotions and actions can stray you to do a mistake..


temptation and curiosity is the very reason why people make mistakes.. and when this 2 is combined.. obviously it means not able to weigh in the consequences...

and another point i took note is how we are brought up by our surroundings and that includes parenting...

fuh.. i never knew how hard parenting is.. until i recall how i was brought up..

ive lived a life of isolation.. my parents were both working hard.. and they left me in care to grow up by myself.. my sister is 6 years apart from me.. i am not very sociable because i didn't know how to make friends.. i had a wild imagination.. playing with toys and imitating that they are real..

i never knew how to make friends until i entered primary school.. well enough about me.. the topic is about parenting and adulthood..

i thought about being a full fledged adult.. i researched on how much it is to buy a motorcycle, a car, a house, maintenance, sustenance and how many children i wish to have..

and guess what?! a salary of $2000 ain't enough.. i estimate about at least $3500 to live easily and breathe easily in singapore if you choose to live in a 5 room flat.. own a used car ranging to about $80 000 and 2 children...

and that is really freaking me out.. with just me with o lvls.. seriously its not enough to support that kind of lifestyle..

if i really want to have at least to that kind of lifestyle i must work hard.. FROM NOW...

holy mackerel.. totally means i need to put more than a 100% and push over my own limits to further my studies and also to secure a job...


this post by far i think is my longest post.. but there is a part 2 about parenting.. this post serves to be a guide for me to remember about how hard adulthood is..

MUSIC TO THE

HEART

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im approximately 167m
my weight is 55kg
Im 18 going 19
AND i do not have any history of medical complications

the bad side of me is
hot tempered..
sarcastic as always
im crazy
i do hold little grudges
i hate the conception of me being lonely and all

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im someone who's willing to cry with you when you're down
i can give good advice
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