Glamorous Indie Rock & Roll Is What I need

Friday, December 5, 2008

all i wanted was to be loved...

maybe i was wrong to have played around with something called life and death....

corrupted my mind for a moment while a devil took temporary control over me...

nobody deserves to hear the wicked side of me.. the unsane part of me..

the dark side of me.. i am wronged.. i have never believe in a maybe... i never believed friends could turn out to smth blissful... cause from my experience... all my best friends.. stay as friends.. and while i try to get their heart im turned away like as if i was a flyer being distributed...

reena im really sorry.. i never meant to play with something i knew was crazy.... my friends dunt know anything.. really2 i never told them anything except the fact that you left me... and i needed someone to listen me out.. before my dark side surfaces... i needed you to talk to me...

to settle it out... rather than texting.. cause i know we might not be able to relay all the information just by texting..

what i did was wrong.. and no i didnt do anything harsh... as you see it was just a cut...

and that cut was to lure a certain toyol i played with when i was younger...

it was my companion back then... but it never has a taste of my blood... it temporarily corrupts my mind... to simply get me high... its dangerous but i had it under control...

but why? why dunt you just believe my love was real?

am i wrong to say that? i never want to leave you... i really love you..

im not stupid you know.. i never do stuff that will kill me.. i respect ur decision to be friends... but there's no turning back for me... if ever there was.. i dunt think i will be with you...

i move on... with life... with love... but i bring all my scars with me... proud of it.. never wanting to repeat the same old mistake...

what reputation do you have? i dare question you..

what bout me?

my friends... they trusted me to be with you forever never to hurt you....

they want us to be together lasting forever

what bout all the other girls i pushed aside?

why would i admit to the whole world im attached to you?

why would i be so uptight to spend my every moment with you....

didnt i prove myself enough?

ever since we were together i never text any other soul except you... i never called out any other person... why do i always have you in my heart and soul??

why must every moment i pause and think how you are... what you might not like... think about what i do before pursuing anything.. i never stayed out late... i never woke up late just so i could meet you on time...

i sacrifice all this... just to be a better person.. to gain ur trust... to make it go with the flow... but no you chose not to continue but to revert to friends... i was taking my time to know you in a relationship... i can tell you anything you wish to know without having to think twice...

cause you're my only one... my secrets cannot be a secret when im with you.. but as friends.. i cant just expose myself openly to you... whats the point of telling you everything when we're friends? you want me to be ur friend when at one point you're attached with another guy do you know i will feel so lonely.. so in despair.. so hopeless thinking that what ive done is just thrown to the side... and in the end.. i get nothing out of it...

MUSIC TO THE

HEART

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im approximately 167m
my weight is 55kg
Im 18 going 19
AND i do not have any history of medical complications

the bad side of me is
hot tempered..
sarcastic as always
im crazy
i do hold little grudges
i hate the conception of me being lonely and all

BUT I DO HAVE A GOOD SIDE
INDIE ROCK AND ROLL!
im someone who's willing to cry with you when you're down
i can give good advice
im always there for anyone