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Friday, June 5, 2009
part 1 life of regrets

my life.. is so ever wonderful.. though i am cheerful on the outside most of the time.. my life has been full of regrets...

i couldnt believe it but today made me have a taste of what i wished i had done and not done....

i guess the first regret of my 18 years of life is friends..

i never knew how to make friends.. well its not about making friends...

but i never get those friends that last....

that took care of me.. that cherished me.. that took me as their own family..

i did have friends like that... i remember their names so clearly and how they look like...

the first one was fauzi.. he was my neighbour when i was a child..

how i envy how much attention he get from his parents...

he have everything that i didnt.. and the weirdest part of it..

i learned how to pray(solat) from him and the guidance of his family...

and that was when i was only 4-7 years old.. i dunt have a brother.. and he was one i could treat as a brother..

he had a playstation.. i had toys... we shared those moments...

i would remember me playing with toys with him...

the power ranger megazord fights.. the pretend im a power ranger gimmick and he would borrow the toys i had at home..

and then about the playstation.. i never had one.. up till this point of age.. i do not own any console games

we followed his father's strict rules... if we want to play the playstation... we had to finish our homework and study..

and we did just that.. and boy was he gifted.. he had to memorise long divisions... and multiplications at the age of 6
and he tutored me...

and when we cant play at either of our houses..

we used to adventure around woodlands... with our bicycles.. and cycle all the way to the end of woodlands..
it was living..

and i learned basketball from i guess a sec sch kid... a chinese fella..
he thought me the basics and he also thought me how to do a three pointer

i feel honoured to be having that sort of friend... i remember pri school life..

i was always the outcast.. though im the lively one in class.. the noiseist one too..

but i made no malay friends... i had chinese friends... am i not a malay?

but sadly the friendship had to end.. i had to move to bukit panjang.. i remembered clearly i didnt want to move.. i didnt want to lose fauzi...

he was the only friend i had.. best friend.. a brother... but i was strong.. i did not cry like other kids...

i used up the remaining time i had and spent it with fauzi...

because we made a pact.. "dunt worry ardy take the opportunity to adventure around bukit panjang and when im there you take me on an adventure" thats what fauzi said...

but sadly.. i never kept in contact with him anymore.. because at that age cellphones were not even cheap.. and everyone uses their house phone to keep in contact... so i didnt bother to even call him...

its my fault and thats part of a regret....

and fauzi he turned out to be something diff from what i saw him to be... he was placed express in secondary school thats not what i found as surprising... but he didnt even make it to poly..

was it my fault that he didnt make it to poly? because as i know when we were young we would keep on comparing our grades and motivate each other to study better...

and he was almost always better than me when it came to grades...
so thats part one of my regret



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im approximately 167m
my weight is 55kg
Im 18 going 19
AND i do not have any history of medical complications

the bad side of me is
hot tempered..
sarcastic as always
im crazy
i do hold little grudges
i hate the conception of me being lonely and all

BUT I DO HAVE A GOOD SIDE
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im someone who's willing to cry with you when you're down
i can give good advice
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