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Friday, June 5, 2009
part 2 life of regrets

as i promised after a week is where i post my part 2.. im not sure to how many parts there will be but.. im sure its a lot.. but its in stages... i dunt want ppl to get and overload of information... but this is the story of my life..


so it was about my childhood... and now its not about my childhood.. its come to the stage of pre-teen

so i moved on with my life living in bukit panjang...

my life started changing in bukit panjang.. i started to get more friends in bukit panjang...

ppl started noticing me... and i felt wanted and also accepted...

maybe thats the reason why i feel i forgotten the warmth from fauzi.. because he was replaced with someone else...

i transferred to zhenghua primary... and got in 4h

but fauzi wasnt replaced while i was in 4h.. but he was replaced when i was in 5s...

primary 4 life was fun.. but nothing much to say.. i made lots of friends.. and again.. they're chinese.... but they are nice ppl...

and i would like to highlight the name i remember vividly.. sharon...

sorry to those i cant remember.. its not because i forgot you on purpose.. but i forget those who never leave an impact on me...

she felt like an older sister... and she doesnt call me ardy.. she calls me like what my family call me.. nazrul...

dunno why she chose that but im okays with it... ouhs 2 of us are like rivals...

she was a prefect while i was a boy who cant keep his mouth shut! ahahahhaa

we always faught but not in a bad way.. but a war of words...

cool aint it? but its fine she reminded me of fauzi.. fighting over grades and pushing each other to the top...

so thats sharon and me!

but i found a replacement for a big brother.. and his name was farhan...

its the same thing over again... we go to each other's house for enjoyment.. but he made a larger impact on me...

he is family to me... he was the only one who stood by my side though i was shunned by the other malay friends..

at malay class.. i was always being made fun of... and he stood me through thick and thin...

and ppl called me gigi besi back then.. (metal teeth)
they made fun of me wearing braces.. (yes i did wear braces)

but farhan didnt make fun of me.. and whats weird.. he calls me by my full name.. Ardy Nazrul... till now...

but for a change.. in terms of grades.. i was better and i help him...

and when it comes to leisure and joy.. he was better... he was the one who played soccer with me..

and fyi.. i never played soccer before.. untill pri 4... and i learned through my friends... and now i can highlight 2 more names Adi Sufyan and Raden..
they thought me how to play soccer...

ouhs and i forgot to mention.. farhan's family is like my own family to me...

they treated me like a son.. and i will never forget that feeling of having a family...

his mother would scold him if he doesnt learn from me.. and his father would be the one laughing at his mom for how strict she is...

his father was a father i wished i had.. slowly when time pass... we had to split to our separate ways.. it was our psle...

and its litterally a split after psle..

he was in a different stream and he couldnt enter the same school as i had..

but i couldnt go to his school.. because i didnt want to end up not studying..

if its why.. its because.. he went to Assumption English School.. and it is actually a vocation school... and they are many negative influences in his school..

and i chose zhenghua secondary because its reputation seems good... and its a new school.. so i doubt that there would be many negative influences...

but this time both of us had cellphone numbers.. so we could have keep in contact...

and his number was... 81147216 and mine was 81147226 the digits only had one difference...(fyi.. both numbers are not active anymore.. so try calling if you wish too)

we kept in contact till sec 1.. and suddenly i couldnt contact him... i kept calling his house to check on him... but he was usually still in school..

cause he made it to the school's soccer team...

and suddenly i gave up.. only because i had another replacement...

thats part 3 olright but i havent say what i regret...

when i was in sec 3 or 4.. i saw him once more.. and talked to him.... asked him why he didnt keep in contact with me.. and have he changed his number.. cause i kept smsing or calling to see if he was free to hang out...

and he dropped a bomb on me... he said he moved ever since his father passed away...

his father was like a father to me.. as i mentioned previously..

he was the one who wanted to teach me how to play guitar... but i denied him.. saying i rather watch him play and sing....

and the last song i heard him play and sing was Hotel california...

im crying right now as i blog.. i lost someone who was like a father for me...

and i did call him dad a few times before.. and farhan was someone i knew would easily fall into his friends urges.. he is kind hearted and do not want to hurt anyones feelings...

i saw him on the day i previously blog... and he is changed...

am i now wrong for not being his friend being his side? i wanted to be by his side when his father died... i wanted to be by his father's side before he leave this world..

i wanted to take a last glance of his father's corpse and say my prayers for him.. and see him smile even though he is dead... and to reminisce on how well he played the guitar and sing...

if i was by farhan's side back wouldn't everything change?

haiz.. how bout that.. ardy cant bear to look back now.. but he has to learn from the past...

SO guys im not emoing alright? im just looking back for a while...


be right back next week for the next part!

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THAT profile

im approximately 167m
my weight is 55kg
Im 18 going 19
AND i do not have any history of medical complications

the bad side of me is
hot tempered..
sarcastic as always
im crazy
i do hold little grudges
i hate the conception of me being lonely and all

BUT I DO HAVE A GOOD SIDE
INDIE ROCK AND ROLL!
im someone who's willing to cry with you when you're down
i can give good advice
im always there for anyone